Two Boys and a Business Calendar

“Guys, I have such a great idea. I am starting to plan my calendar for the winter and spring, because sometimes I’ll be traveling to speak and teach and talk about the book. I was thinking… would you like to go with me on those trips?”

Their eyes lock with one another, sparkling with pictures of airplanes and suitcases and adventures. “Yes! Yes!”

“I’m thinking I will take one boy at a time, and you can each be my helper for the trip.”

“And I will go on the first trip with you,” says one who is still learning to put others first.

“Well, we will have to look at our calendars – school, gymnastics, football – all of those things, and decide when its best for each of you to slip away with me. So I’m not sure who will go first. But I am excited to plan with each of you.”

“I have an idea, Mommy. Why don’t you just send us?”

And there we have it, my friends. I’ll send my children and a meal plan. Done.

Pocket Knives and Rites of Passage

Tuck spent Saturday night at a sleepover birthday party with a couple of the guys on his football team.  It was pretty much the best night of his life, I think.


At football practice on Friday, the boys were talking about the party, making their plans.  In the girl world I grew up in, slumber party plans meant you carefully chose and invited who would sleep next to you.  That’s the one you would whisper into the morning hours with.


These boys were all talking big about the pocket knives they would bring along for the night.


Before you think I’m crazy to send my son to a knife party, here’s what I’m learning: boys have to do what boys have to do.  There are words they have to say.  There are bodily functions they must display and rate.  And there are rites of passage into manhood, and I don’t know them.  So I follow the lead of the men in their lives, men whom I trust and whom I know love my sons, and I learn the things boys have to do on their path of knowing their masculinity.


Pocket knives are one of these rites of passage.


I listened to the boys talking at football practice, comparing how long and sharp their blades are.  And I knew in my heart, it’s time for Tucker to have Robb’s pocket knife. Left to my own devices, I probably would have given it to him after he’s married.  But the kid has got to be a boy.  And I can’t turn him into a girly one.


Here’s the thing, though… the blade of Robb’s pocket knife has been open since he died.  I’m sure at some point I found it, opened it, had no idea how to close it, and wisely left the open blade in the pencil drawer of my desk.  Because I’m a girl who tends to be curious in the world of boy things, but I don’t know what I’m doing until someone is gracious to teach me what it’s all about.


(This has complicated various realms of my life, most harmlessly when I really, really wanted to play with the Transformers on the playground in second grade.)


I took the pocket knife with me as I took Tuck to the party, and I quietly slipped it to Coach.  Of course, he knew exactly how to close it, and he immediately engaged Tucker in the first rules of pocket knife safety.  Equally important, Tyler got to hold it, too.


The birthday party proceeded with fishing, swimming, a treasure hunt with clues in the woods, paintballs in slingshots toward a target, and – when that got boring – paintballs in slingshots to kill crickets in what they termed The Death Drop. Tucker came home with a backpacker’s survival kit, a sparkly new water bottle, a bag of loot from the treasure chest, and a whoopie cushion.  I am told it was a night of perpetual burping and farting, which equals tremendous success.


He brought the pocket knife home, and he now knows how to use and care for it responsibly.  And my favorite part is how proud he is of a treasured possession.


“This pocket knife belonged to my dad.”